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Download or stream MP3 files, view video clips of live performances and find out once and for all what the hell the lyrics are to your favorite songs.

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THE MISSING:: bLEEd

"This is a dark sound that spells rage...and I would say it definitely has a sadomasochistic charm to it..."

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  • MP3 files
    Who doesn't love a free sample? Or six? We made nifty little soundbytes for ya so that even if you have a slow P.O.S. computer like mine, you can still enjoy them. Or not.

     broken
     belief
     in two
     scary kitty
     Scarecrow
     boogeyman

     

  • Lyrics
    I am finally breaking down and posting lyrics (which I had never done previously 'cuz I always thought that it was kind of pretentious). But we've got a big show coming up, and we're doing songs I haven't even sung or even listened to in over 10 years, and I kinda don't remember the lyrics.

     broken
     belief
     in two
     scary kitty
     screaming inside
     boogeyman
     bleed
     justice
     lead into gold
     dying room
     family values
     always you
     bullet
     i scare you
     listen
     plague


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      bLEEd



  • Full-length MP3s
    Lots o' people have been bugging me to post a full song, and so I'm finally giving in to peer pressure. Here it is, you sick little monkeys! 

     broken (live at CBGB)


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  • Videos
    Download and view a short, digital video clip of "boogeyman" shot at The Birch Hill or full-length videos of "belief" and "scary kitty" shot at CBGB. (Even with a cable connection, the full-lengths take a minute or two to pop up, so be patient.) And if you're a loser like me and still have dial-up, I recommend taking a day off from work to download them. (Or you can skip the whole download process and get our new CD; we stuck the video files right on it!) Need a RealPlayer? Get one here for FREE!

     belief
     scary kitty
     boogeyman


  • Out of Print CDs
    Four song EP Poor Dolly is available at amazon.com for those of you who are still living in the past. However, it is now out of print and they only have a few copies left. Once they're gone, they're gone forever!


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  • broken
    the clock ticks down the time draws near
    you already know what you don’t want to hear
    you can’t solve this puzzled mind
    you’ve never lost (there’s always a first time)
    don’t look back when you are free
    everything will burn with me
    i am set on self-destruct
    and the clock ticks down
    my time has come
    5…4…3…2…1

    just run
    just run from me

    i never lied i warned you then
    once more i try and i fail again
    all the hell that i’ve put you through
    see what have i done to you
    i’m killing you, you must believe
    i will drag you down with me
    i am set on self-destruct
    the clock ticks down
    5…4…3…2…1

    just run
    just run

    i am eating you alive
    save yourself because you can’t save me
    you can fool yourself but tell me. . .
    at what price salvation?

    at what price salvation?
    tell me at what price salvation?
    tell me at what price salvation?
    save yourself because you can’t save me

    i never lied i warned you then
    once more i try and i fail again
    all the hell that i put you through
    dear god what have i done to you?
    i’m killing you, you must believe
    i will make you burn with me
    i am set on self-destruct
    5…4…3…2…1

    just run
    just run

    i am eating you alive
    at what price will my salvation be?
    you can save yourself
    but you can’t save me

    at what price salvation?
    tell me at what price salvation?
    tell me at what price salvation?
    save yourself because you can’t save me

    you can’t save me
    you can’t heal me
    you can’t help me
    you can’t fix me
    i am

    broken



  • belief
    once when i had faith in the world
    i thought people got what they deserved
    i was so young and so na´ve

    now i’ve grown i’ve changed my mind
    the world and god are really not that kind
    but still i clung to my beliefs

    still i believed

    but when only a stone says you were here
    (has it been that long?) these years
    have passed but i’m still in disbelief

    in disbelief

    and all the times i’ve been betrayed
    they take my soul and they throw it away
    and once again i am deceived

    and i bleed
    i bleed

    you tell me what is justified
    how fair is love or war when children die?
    is there no hope and no relief?

    when right is oft repaid with wrong
    i guess the meek will never beat the strong
    so much for faith and my beliefs

    do i believe?
    i believe…

    i believe
    i believe
    i believe in what i see

    do i believe?




  • in two
    i am split in two

    sometimes i want to be a saint
    i wanna wallow in my sleaze
    one minute i’m a goddess
    and the next a bitch, diseased
    today i want to save the world
    and tomorrow watch it burn
    i come by my lessons painfully
    then forget all that i’ve learned
    when i want to

    i want to
    i want to
    when i want to
    i want to

    i know what i want
    i want everything
    i know what i want
    i want nothing

    i want to make you happy
    then beat the smile from your face
    i will become your downfall
    and your saving fucking grace
    i want to be a virgin
    i want to fuck you ‘til you bleed
    i will worship you then spit in your face
    i don’t want who i need
    but i want you

    i want you
    i want you
    when i want you
    i want you

    i know what i want
    i want everything
    i know what i want
    i want nothing

    i wish for happiness
    when my mind becomes my hell
    but sometimes there’s comfort in my pain
    ‘cause i know it so well
    i want to slay the demons
    that still haunt me day and night
    but sometimes i’m grateful for my fear
    it reminds me i’m alive
    but i hate to

    i hate to
    i hate to
    but i hate to be afraid
    no matter who you think you see
    it’s only ever half of me
    inside my head is deafening
    please help me

    all i want is for this to stop i want all this to stop i need all this to stop please god just make it stop dear god please make it stop god damn it never stops fuck me just make it…

    and i pray
    for some silence
    why am i two i's?
    the pain is slowly killing me
    the war that others cannot see
    it's what i go through
    'cause i am

    in two

    i am split in two



  • scary kitty
    crouched in a corner
    you patiently stalk me
    you watch in silence
    you wait for me

    slinking through shadow
    you think that i don't know
    coiled and twitching
    the tension is maddening

    wanting to claw me
    to leap out and maul me
    scratch me bite me
    love me fight me
    you fear yet adore me
    but still want to claw me

    under the table
    behind a chair
    watching me with your cold stare
    i am the mouse - i slink
    you prey upon me
    i got to hide from
    scary kitty

    you're purring so sweetly
    whenever you greet me
    then without warning
    you're vicious and clawing
    scratch me bite me
    love me fight me
    rip me tear me
    stalk me scare me
    bite me scratch me
    try to catch me

    did you miss me?
    why won't you kiss me?
    did you miss me?
    won't you kiss me?



  • screaming inside
    once i stood on the brink
    as i had done many times before
    and when i finally stepped across
    i'd thought it through wanted no more
    but it hurts me now as it did then
    to think i'd never hurt again
    when i think of that september day
    it's no mere memory
    for i am there

    a slow dawning that this was wrong
    a wasted life just thrown away
    the lights dwindled
    the sounds echoed
    and i had changed my mind
    but i thought it was too late for me
    and as the dark crept in

    i was screaming inside
    i wanted to live
    i wanted to change
    i didn't want to leave here wanting more

    and all the things i hadn't done, would never do
    seemed so completely wonderful
    and everything in the world seemed
    so beautiful

    i could not remember what had been
    so bad to come to such an end
    dear god i have not finished here
    what have i done?
    but it's too late

    and i thought how
    stupid
    shameful
    wasteful
    useless
    pointless
    selfish
    foolish
    but i thought it was too late for me
    and as the dark crept in

    i am screaming inside
    i want to live
    i want to change
    to start over

    i screamed it out loud
    i will live
    i will not die
    i will not die
    i will not die
    in this way
    in this place
    wanting more


  • boogeyman
    “my mommy always said there were no monsters, no real ones…but there are”

    no lilypads for mommy
    the jaws that dragged you down
    and as you breathed your life away
    were you surprised he’d been around?

    the marks of Camels and cowboys
    circles of your pain
    and as he beat your life away
    were you surprised he bore her name?

    he's what you know
    he's what you fear
    who needs hell when he’s already here?

    he's not where you think
    in your closet, beneath your bed
    when you see through the lies
    that they've always said
    because the lights won't chase him
    and the covers won't save you
    by the time you see his face
    he's already got you

    hush little baby don't you cry
    momma's gonna sing you a lullaby

    gunshot ripped through your playground
    screaming as you fall
    and as you bled your life away
    were you surprised he was so small?

    he's what you know
    he's what you fear
    who needs hell when he's already here?

    he's not where you think
    in your closet, beneath your bed
    when you see through the lies
    that they've always said
    because the lights won't chase him
    and the covers won't save you
    by the time you see his face
    he's already got you

    sometimes grownups even fear his name
    as your sickness grows
    and as they blame your life away
    were you surprised he killed so slow?

    he's twisted, burning metal
    he's cold, deep water
    he's a tightly clenched fist
    he's a bullet, he's your mother
    he's an animal, he is fire
    he is hunger, he's disease
    he is always the last thing
    that a child ever sees

    monster!
    monster!
    monster!
    MOMMY!


  • bleed
    when the voices whispering
    have become unkind
    i try to shut them out
    but they will not die
    i can't push the urge away
    searching for release
    to let what's inside out
    help me please

    when i'm lost and beaten down
    until i'm numb again
    i remember i'm alive
    the only way i can
    i will hide it all away
    so you cannot see
    i only punish myself
    in secrecy

    this is what i get
    this pain is all i need
    it's better when i hurt myself so
    just let me bleed

    any damage that you see
    is covered up by lies
    it is only from myself
    that i cannot hide
    through the years i have not learned
    to accept my shame
    but this i learned from no one else
    i am the one to blame

    this is what i want
    this pain is all i need
    it's better when i hurt myself so
    just let me bleed

    maybe one day i'll be free
    of my disgust and doubt
    i don't need your pity please
    i'll find my own way out
    maybe one day i'll have the strength
    that i hope to find
    but 'til then i'll take the blade
    just one more time

    this is what i am
    i wish i did not need
    i'm sorry but i hurt myself so
    just let me bleed

    just let me bleed



     
  • justice
    you show your affection
    with fists of rejection
    an innocent woman
    should not need protection
    how can you beat her?
    you scar and mistreat her
    your sick love's a crime
    now all her pain is mine

    for each tear in vain
    i have shed in her name
    i will find you and teach you
    the meaning of pain
    how you will suffer
    you beat her, then fuck her
    your twisted addiction
    now face your conviction

    make her bleed
    you wanna make her bleed
    you wanna make her bleed
    why don't you hit on me?
    you wanna hit on me?
    so this is how you think
    a man's supposed to act?
    you beat on women
    'cause they don't hit back
    hit on me
    coward!

    so this is how you think
    a man's supposed to act?
    you beat on women
    'cause we don't hit back
    hit on me
    justice!



     
  • lead into gold
    alchemists, poets, scientists
    have learned what i don't know
    love is blind (and deaf and dumb)
    a dead weed cannot grow
    just let it go

    you think you see the light inside
    but he is still the same
    the thug he was is the thug he is
    some things never change
    they never change

    i tried
    to find a diamond in the rough
    i lied
    to myself but it wasn't enough

    he was so uncouth, unkind
    i know i had been told
    now my eyes are open wide
    it's true
    you can't turn lead into gold

    can't turn lead into gold
    no blood from a stone
    just leave it alone
    and watch your own

    i tried
    to find a diamond in a pile of shit
    i lied
    to myself and i'm sick of it

    a stitch in time could save my mind
    to learn before i'm old
    no matter how fucking hard you try
    you
    you can't turn lead into gold

    you can't turn lead into gold



     
  • dying room
    in a forgotten place, a child's face
    old beyond her years
    her body caged, my soul enraged
    she's drowning in her tears
    though they may deny you
    (and i know they'll try to)
    i cannot help but wonder
    will no one help her?

    a china doll, but less alive
    her time in this world
    her only crime the same as mine
    to have been born a girl
    better i should suffer
    than to watch another
    one so small can do no wrong
    child -- where's your mother?
    oh, mother!

    can no one tell me how a mother
    can give away her own?
    cast aside, left to die
    all alone

    can no one tell me how a person
    can say that this is right?
    all the guilt, shame, blame
    do you sleep at night?

    can no one tell me the purpose
    of being born only to die
    little children, angels
    hear them cry

    in a forgotten place, a child's face
    old beyond her years
    her body caged, my soul enraged
    i'm drowning in my tears
    they say the blame is thought to be
    a one-child policy
    but you were sent to
    the dying room
    Mei-Ming, i'm so sorry

    i'm sorry


     
  • family values
    what's the purpose of loving each other?
    sent from up above, thrown to the gutter
    in a mother's tears, a child is crying
    slowly through the years, her child is dying

    help is never found
    lord -- are you around?
    run from the night
    (is it cold in the light?)
    i'll hold you close as you die

    hate can never be what is right
    never fix what is wrong
    and it can never see what is the truth
    it's affecting us all
    but not effecting us all
    the dead that walk among us are the proof
    all the lessons of time
    they have never been kind
    has all that we have fought for been a lie?
    will we learn how to live
    like we know how to die
    my friend is dead; you tell me why

    safe in daddy's arms you will find me
    if he were around; where can he be?
    who should i believe? when love is danger
    how can i conceive to love a stranger?

    time is running out
    can we turn around?
    look deep inside
    and you won't have to hide
    we're near the end of the line

    innocence is such a precious disease
    don't turn your back on the ones that you need
    just let it go free yourself from the pain
    you've been enslaved by your own guilt and shame
    leave it alone i'll be right by your side
    just give me your hand and together we'll fly
    as you die

    hate is not a family value
    hate
    hate is hate


     
  • always you
    every time i look into your eyes there's a change in me
    what is it that you cannot disguise? (do i really want to see?)
    it's a river rising, overflows its banks and drowns its people
    everything that dares to cross its path is dead
    everything that dares to cross its path is
    dead

    thought i knew you all too well then you go and change my mind
    how could someone be so cruel so cold i missed the signs
    and when i asked myself the question that i already knew
    the answer i was looking for, unclear
    tell me – who are you?
    tell me – who are you?
    tell me...

    you rear your head just when you please no rules, no reason
    and leave the bed of my sanity undone
    there's something deep within this beast within this beauty
    it does not sleep and it will never let me be
    let me be
    it will never let me be

    never let me

    again i smile but it fades away
    to be replaced by another but it's different in some way
    things i cannot think about
    well it's not so deep and i know that it wants out
    i try to run and i try to hide
    but i can't escape the voices from inside my mind
    it's true
    it's the other side of me
    you

    thought i knew you all too well then you go and change my mind
    (tell me)
    how could someone be so cruel so cold i missed the signs
    (show me)
    and when i asked myself the question that i already knew
    (fuck me)
    the answer i was looking for, unchanged
    i was always you

    i was always you
    you're just another side of me
    i was always
    you


     
  • bullet
    you can keep me down no longer
    you took my heart you took my soul away
    you drained me of my power
    my look had changed, my life had gone astray

    i knew i was becoming
    the woman i had put down all my life
    and now i realize the damage
    that you did to me inside

    don't want you back again...

    bullet in my head
    it's like a bullet in my head
    i used to wish i was dead
    from the things that she said to me
    bullet in my head
    she’s like a bullet in my head
    she was a bullet
    in my head

    i gave you the light inside me
    you burned it out and you destroyed my pride
    you're the one i called a liar
    but deep inside i knew that it was i
    you know you made my mind a living hell
    from which i cannot hide
    it's there i have to face the hate for you
    that fucks me up inside

    don't want you back again...
    i called you my friend
    but you're a

    bullet in my head
    you’re like a bullet in my head
    i used to wish i was dead
    from the things that she did to me
    bullet in my head
    she's like a bullet in my head
    she was a bullet
    in my head

    i called you my friend
    you bitch!!
    you were a

    bullet in my head
    you were a bullet in my head
    i used to wish i was dead
    from the things that you did to me
    bullet in my head
    you're like a bullet in my head
    you were a bullet
    in my head

    you know i wish you were dead
    i'll put a bullet in your head


     
  • i scare you
    you want strong but not too loud
    you want a barbie that is real
    you want me to pour my heart out
    then you try to tell me it's not how i should feel
    you want tact
    you want tame
    you want another precious jewel
    you're a fool

    well i know what you think and it's always the same
    i won't play that part and i don't wanna play that game
    you can't change me i know that you want to
    tell me...
    do i scare you?

    who are you to tell me what i should or want to do?
    this is who i am i don’t care what "womyn" play
    and i won't change my mind just to please you
    you want safe
    you want sane
    you want emotion but control
    i don't think so

    well i'm not what you think but it's always the same
    i don't fit that part and i will not play your game
    you cant hurt me i know that you'll try to
    i know
    that i scare you

    boo!

    i know what you think and it's all the same
    i won't play that part and i will not play your game
    you can't stop me
    don’t try to
    i like
    that i scare you


     
  • listen
    you can hear it in a world unseen
    as it is stripped away by a vast killing machine
    the earth is soaked with blood
    and as the bodies mount i feel there is enough
    of the silence

    what is happening to our world?
    i don't know
    and i ask you
    is there any hope for our twisted world at all?
    is there any hope for our desperate, twisted world
    full of silence?

    you can hear it in a city slum
    or in the sharp report of a child's smoking gun
    a virus sweeps the land
    meanwhile another woman dies by her husband's hand
    she is silenced

    what is happening to our world?
    i don't know
    and i ask you
    is there any hope for our twisted world at all?
    is there any hope for our desperate, twisted world
    full of silence?

    you can hear it in a child's cry
    as a vulture sits and waits for her to die
    you say there is a god
    if there is i ask you where is your god now?
    he is silent

    and their bellies are empty
    and their eyes are full
    of a life they lost
    and a hope they never had
    the streets they call their home
    tell me...why is it that we cannot feed our own?

    the meek shall perish
    there's nothing to inherit
    unless there's change
    we are drowning
    in the silence

    listen
    listen to the sound of silence
    listen

    listen


     
  • plague
    I don't even know where the lyrics for this song are. When I find it, I'll post it.
     
     








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